The CI is fucked!

The CI is fucked!
Here I am again in the same spot. My supervisor asked me today why I let this get me all the time.
I walk out to think about it, and I went back to the past, and I thought:
Several reasons; because I am Latina, and we don’t take BS, because I don’t do that, trying to harm a counselor just to get power.
So who I work with now????
I work with a very egocentric counselor. This counselor wants to please clients in order to get their approval.
She lies and deceives.
Yesterday I confront her about what she did to me and she right way started to talk about the hitter, and ask if the air condition was on.
I know she did that to have time to think. Then she denied everything. I was aware that she would.
But what really happen????
In the other day I was in group, and I thought that some of her clients are running from me, and don’t talk to me anymore like before.
I thought that was because their counselor forbidden them to talk to me, but I didn’t give too much attention to that. To be honest I had much more going on in my head that paying attention to that. I did wrong! I should have pay attention.
So it’s Friday and one of her clients walked into my office to tell me that her counselor is making questions about me, and what I do in my shift.
I know the client was being honest. I could feel, I could see.
This counselor told the supervision that I was meeting with this client.
When my supervisor asked me if I was meeting with the client I didn’t understand right way!!!!!
Meeting????
I asked: what do you mean?
Having individual sessions with the client.
Oh God! Individual session???? Over time???
I said: NO!
But what I do I talk with the client like I talk with all of them. I help all of them.
I am not possessed with clients. I will help who needs help.
So, I have this client at 6.30am crying, and crying, and what you want me to do???? Ignore?????
Can’t ignore!
It’s my responsibility to see what is going on and how can I help.
BUT, for this counselor that is making her feel rejected! For this counselor this means loosing control and power.
So we cannot talk with her caseload.
Sad isn’t? Very sad, very sad!
So when the clients get as a message that her caseload can’t talk with other clients, what do you think is going to be the real message??????
“ oh…… the staff doesn’t get along!!!!!! We can split them!!!!!!!”
I am here right now writing this and thinking:
Why God, why the supervision let this happen? why?”
I can’t understand. I can’t understand their point of view”
I told my supervisor “she is a bad person!”
Like I said before she denied and she said is clients to are trying to split staff.
Honesty, I know wasn’t the clients, but also honesty, I am tired of the drama, and she will denied until the end, I am going to let them think that were the clients.
So here I have a counselor who refuses and find ways to not do groups, because she is busy on gossip.
So today Saturday I arrived work and was in log on book “didn’t do groups”
My thought was: “oh God, again??? She didn’t do the two 16 groups???
So today when she arrived I asked her: witch group you want to do? You want to do the 2 hours family group or the yellow group?
Her answer was the same than last week “I can’t do any! I have 5 indv. Sessions to do!”
I was assertive and I told her that I couldn’t do the yellow group because I had one last indv. Session to do.
So here I go to do the 2 hours group.
Then she started saying that her last director from another company gave her email and phone number to her ex clients.
Fuck fuck and fuck…she lei again!!!! I know that she does that. I know she gives her phone number and email to the clients!
Then she started to tell me how they miss her in the other company, and they want her back, and how wonderful is the other company.
Then she keeps going saying that Cornell doesn’t have care and concern for the counselors and the other company has.
See, I have a problem with dishonesty.
What I am going to do?
Enough, I am going to shut down, simple as that.
Next week on staff meeting I even won’t say a word
Why? Simple I am exhausted!
I am tired!
I wish I could have a coworker who I had fun with to balance my day with clients
I wish I could have a coworker that would work as much as I do, and would respect me.
And at the end who gets fuck? The CI will.