Lets see what 2010 will bring me.
Well this year was so complicate, so many surprises, so many disappointments, so many adaptations.
I started the year recovering from a pneumonia, and that was the point that everything was going wrong.
I left Cornell and all that meant behind my back. Cornell was a good place to learn what to do and to learn what not become.
Cornell taught everything I need to learn about paper work, MRT, criminal thinking, probation stuff, as working with adult probation clients. The rest I believe I didn’t learn anything, I guess I already knew it.
I also left behind a bad husband. Someone who is something in front of people and another at home.
I came to Portugal I found a very sick mother.
Is been hard for me to understand God and all His care.
I have doubts today.
I found out how treatment centers work in Portugal, and at the moment I am not liking.
I am going to start 2010 without knowing if I stay at this field or I move to my old one.
I know one thing, I am tired and not motivated anymore.
I have so many ideas, but all in stand by. don’t know what to do, what to look for.
Was I a good person I 2009?
Huh….. I guess I didn’t like much my behavior through 2009.
I still hold too much resentments, I’m still holding a big ego.
I am still alone…. For some reason I still cant fall in love!
I just cant!
Do I still think in people I left behind?
Sure!
But I don’t miss them. They are just toys in hans of other people. Too cowards. Too empty. Too sad!
So lets see how this 2010 will start and what it will bring me and what I can give to the universe.
I hope I will be a better person and run from bad and futile people.
I hope my dogs will be well with me.
I hope 2010 will be a years of winning and not loose.
