Horrible week Christmas season

Horrible week

This last week was horrible. Its Christmas time, and the clients are going insane. The week was about disease.
They screamed at each other, they called bitches at each other; they stopped people from sharing by telling them “is always you sharing! I am tired to listen to you”, they were hidden in their rooms, and no one notice, 2 of them ran away with 2 sets of clothes. People called me screaming that I gave the wrong description of clothes. I lost the control! I didn’t want to be there with all that craziness. Because we are not a TC anymore, they are feeling they can do whatever they want too. I miss TC!
Anyway, what is the true on this?
The true is they don’t have a clue why they are mad!!!! Once again, they aren’t aware!
Christmas time, thanks giving time, what that really means to the addict?
Grieve, lost, guilty, shame, powerless
They spend all year feeling a little of those at time. They don’t feel together. One week five of them are feeling that because their counselor gave them work on that. Next month more 5, and after that more 3, etc…
BUT, this time of the year - ALL OF THEM ARE FEELING THE SAME AT THE SAME TIME!Because they are so new in recovery they don’t understand what is going on with them, so they react, not act.
They transfer those feelings at each other.
Is that bad this season? NO! IS PERFECT!
This season can change the way they think, and take them to hate drugs.
It is going to happen???? NO! THEY ARENT AWARE, so they will keep fighting with each others.
It’s easy to look to others rather to look to ourselves. Always was, always will be!
I believe is a basic instinct!
So now let me explain what hell I am talking about here, what is my point.
GRIVE vs. LOST
The holiday season is a fact! They cannot deny. They see it everywhere. A simple Christmas three is too obvious to take them out of denial.
They are feeling the lost. They cannot celebrate Christmas. They cannot celebrate with their families, because they are in treatment. So they are feeling the lost, what take them right way to grieve.
Like you know grieve as a lot of stages. One of them is anger, and bargaining
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Is exactly what they are doing with each other.
GUILTY
Guilty because they remember what they did to their families. All the harm they caused.
They are aware they cannot be with their children at this time, so they feel guilty for having their children spending the Christmas without them. Then in here takes also place religion!
How???? Really????
Oh yeah; Jesus = religion.
Religion = sin
Drug addiction; steal; prostitution; lie; all of this in the bible is A SIN. So they are feeling they are sinners. That will take them to feel SHAME.
POWERLESS
Lost of control. They cannot leave treatment to spend this season with the love ones.
See, at this time a lot is up. They are feeling this all of them at same time.
You can tell me that everyone is different, and I will tell you that you are right, BUT, the Christmas is for everyone, and because of that I can say they are feeling the same.
So I have half the unit arguing, and screaming = active anger
The other half wants to sleep = passive anger
Now me as a counselor, and a human being what role did a play on that?
I did my best as a counselor.
As a human being I am going through the same, because I don’t have family here, and I am feeling guilty to not be with my mother who is alone in my country.
So I am not the best counselor at this time to them. I believe that my colleagues are going to do a better job with them at this time.
I am just going to wait that this season is over.
Well, what better video than this one to explain this